QUIT QUIT QUIT

I quit Pokerstars, I quit blogging, I QUIT !!!

That FCKN bitch called variance just wont let go of me. This is just hilarious, played a tiny set of low buyin (thank god) hypers - just 6 tables - and in EVERYONE of them I got rolled in oil and dipped in feathers. And its not that I play 1000 games and suddenly run into this - no, I've only played around 250 since switched to Pokerstars, and almost all of it is UNDER UNDER UNDER EV.


HOW IS THIS EVEN POSSIBLE:

Notice that I would have lost to A8 anyways...

This is just JINXED. TWICE KK AND would have lost to A5.    SICK SICK SICK

Dont need to call me with to jacks - J2 would have done it - but maybe the RNG thought i had AA!

Thank for reading, whoever randomly stumbled over my FORMER blog.

Bye all, and anyone interested can have my bitch. I'm sure she will find YOU anyway.

MORE MORE MORE

More of the same SHITE just a different day. I used to get to the river before I got hammered with a 3-outer, now it's right in my face. I hate Pokerstars, I hate getting 3-outered, I hate variance and I hate to whine in this blog. So I guess I'll stop everything soon!

This is how I STILLLLLLLL run:

ON THE BUBBLE!

ON THE BUBBLE!


Set today: 14,9% EV-ROI and -72,4% FCK'IN-VARIANCE-LOL-ROI

Pokerstars owes me...

Tired of my bankroll standing still while it's supposed to be growing, all because Pokerstars still haven't fixed their RNG so that you at least once in a while run close to expectation. And it's not just me with my tiny sample! I'm seeing it in almost every blog I come around, downswing and doomswitch over and over again.

I still have a problem with my neck, so not playing very much. Just once and a while some of my good old favorite regular speed:

Well atleast I have a decent ROI, but the hourly is just funmoney due to the fact I can't play continuously given my §#?%<¤½ NECK.

Wishes for Christmas:

- new neck
- time for 50 sngs a day
- boomswitch

Happy new year all !

Missing Full Tilt

Man, how I miss the good old days at fulltilt. Playing regular speed sng and winning nice and steady, building bankroll one brick after another.

Since I switched to pokerstars I'm getting coolered time after time after time. Was always shaking my head when other players were talking about how stars was rigged and that the RNG was fixed. Sorry guys, now I know what you mean.

It does'nt matter what I play, or what level I play -  just can't win anything. Today I tried 6 tables of $3.50 18mans, and an idiot shoves 21bb from btn with A8 over a limper, and I call from sb with KK and loose. On another table I shove 12bb from sb with AQ and get called from a 15bb stack in bb with T9s ??? and you know the rest...

And finally on the last table sitting in the bb with the smallest stack and 5 players left. Sb who is the 2nd-smallest in chips pushes Q7 into my 44 and I call. Now here the pokergods wanted to help me and said that the sb could not hit his Q or 7 - fine I think - that's almost a win.
Flop comes 9-8-6, and of course - just what I thought... make him find another way to pwn me. But wait, the pokergods give me one last chance to win: they set the rule that he can't win with a straight either! YES man, now I can finally get those chips and get in the money.
Then the turn comes: 8... and that little fucker finds a loophole to f... me up with a 9 on the river and counterfits me or whatever.
It was never ment for me to win that hand - no matter what!

Furthermore my Acer PC is dead - but that's just life I guess, and that's why I have no image of my red line messing around $-cero, while the green line is going upwards. Kick the man while he's down.

No Poker

No playing, no posting, no blogging, no studying, no videos and no nothing in front of the computer.

Just an aching neck and countless treatments from a physiotherapist...

Regulars at pokerstars.

Been trying out the regular speed sng's at pokerstars lately. The BOP had double prizes, so I thought I'd give it a little shot and play my main game where I usually have a good ROI. Things started out very well with my 6 tables; 2 first and a 2nd place. Another set 7 with tables made me one 1st, 2 2nd and one 3rd. But then got the variance coming in the last set of 7 (which was played after the first set of 6).

So not even near any prices, and I think one have to run like god to get on top of BOP. But never mind, this is not something to consider for a common hobbyplayer like myself. The regular speed games, on the other hand, may be something to take under consideration. They seem rather soft compared to the turbos. Only downside is, they take foreeeeever to finish. On average they take just under one hour, but at the time of day I play they load rather slow, and when you get to a win it can have been running for almost 80 minutes!

And as usual a little graph from a very little sample:

If it somehow would be possible to obtain a 15-20% ROI it might be profitable to play these instead of the turbos. So maybe I continue where I left off at full tilt - playing the regulars...

Motivation.

Have been reading some books lately on how to develop your personality, especially on setting goals and being motivated. This is intended for use in my approach to poker, but can of course also be used in other contexts.
Of the books I highly recommend "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People" written by Stephen R. Covey.

Not surprisingly, it is said that it is the fifth best-selling book in the world, and I think many things reviewed in it can be related to poker. Let me show you some text from habit one which is called "Be proactive":

Being Proactive is about taking responsibility for your life. You can't keep blaming everything on your parents or grandparents. Proactive people recognize that they are "response-able." They don't blame genetics, circumstances, conditions, or conditioning for their behavior. They know they choose their behavior. Reactive people, on the other hand, are often affected by their physical environment. They find external sources to blame for their behavior. If the weather is good, they feel good. If it isn't, it affects their attitude and performance, and they blame the weather. All of these external forces act as stimuli that we respond to. Between the stimulus and the response is your greatest power--you have the freedom to choose your response.

Instead of reacting to or worrying about conditions over which they have little or no control, proactive people focus their time and energy on things they can control. The problems, challenges, and opportunities we face fall into two areas--Circle of Concern and Circle of Influence.

 Proactive people focus their efforts on their Circle of Influence. They work on the things they can do something about: health, children, problems at work. Reactive people focus their efforts in the Circle of Concern--things over which they have little or no control: the national debt, terrorism, the weather. Gaining an awareness of the areas in which we expend our energies in is a giant step in becoming proactive.

- guess you can see the relations to poker, especially if you're facing a downswing.

On the pokerplaying front, I again found myself in my so called "pokernowhereland" dabbling around in different sng-games; 45man, 18man, 6max and 9man turbos, unable to settle down and concentrating on one single game. At least I'm doing very well in everything - especially in multitables - although samples as usual are small:

Think it ends in a choice between 18man turbo and 9man turbo.