PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

Please can someone stop this doomswitch

Just wont stop, and it's like self-reinforcing leaving me thinking I'll never ever gonna win again.

Overall I'm now officially down more than 100 BI

Soooooooo close to stop playing this shite and leaving JOKERSTARS for ever...

DISCOURAGING

80BI under EV!

I know it's the dark soul of variance, but still finding it hard to deal with, especially when it just continues day after day, after day, after day....

This is now 6 days in a row getting dipped in tar and rolled for my Money.

NEVER NEVER NEVER

NEVER NEVER EVER post a winning graph like I did in the previous post, or you'll get hunted down by the bitch called variance and get a SMACKING:

Still playing - still winning

but WHO cares...

Should play LONGER
Should play HIGHER
Should play MORE TABLES
Should play staked -

    cause I'm a BRM NIT-REG

Punktured red line

Love my new playground, and finally able to get juuuust a little more games in thanks to "McKenzie"

Lately though, I'm beginning to question my game and wondering WTF is going on. Is this just standard variance or is it me who have changed something in my game:

It's almost like getting 2-outered and stuff like that is better that this, at least you can see that the red line is going up and that you eventually will catch up.

It's even more frustuating when you look at the previous games:

 

 

Well, guess I just have to play through it and face the fact that this is hypers "in a nutshell."


One a second note:

PLAY PLAY PLAY

Finally found my poker resting ground, and also a game where I can play small short sessions without hurting my x¤"&%¤ neck too much.

Doing fine so far:

Also read some of "Mental game of poker" and took the good decision of making a GOAL which has always been a leak of mine. So now I have something to aim for which is highly motivating.

Only thing needed now is to change name of blog!

QUIT QUIT QUIT

I quit Pokerstars, I quit blogging, I QUIT !!!

That FCKN bitch called variance just wont let go of me. This is just hilarious, played a tiny set of low buyin (thank god) hypers - just 6 tables - and in EVERYONE of them I got rolled in oil and dipped in feathers. And its not that I play 1000 games and suddenly run into this - no, I've only played around 250 since switched to Pokerstars, and almost all of it is UNDER UNDER UNDER EV.


HOW IS THIS EVEN POSSIBLE:

Notice that I would have lost to A8 anyways...

This is just JINXED. TWICE KK AND would have lost to A5.    SICK SICK SICK

Dont need to call me with to jacks - J2 would have done it - but maybe the RNG thought i had AA!

Thank for reading, whoever randomly stumbled over my FORMER blog.

Bye all, and anyone interested can have my bitch. I'm sure she will find YOU anyway.